so i’ve fought to understand,
because my brokenness gave me no choice. 
and i will write the hard things,
forever and all of my days. 

i see arrows
i’m at a loss for words
i feel the war
i’m frozen in the zone.

i’m ready to waste it all
all of it on Him,
and if you have not a clue what i’m referring to — there’s a story of a lady at Bethany.